Faded with Tears

So many tears I have shed. So many times I have tried to become colorful again. When you are taken by illness, it changes you. You lose some of yourself. Your color. You try to become what you once were. You shed tear after tear, trying to get that color back. If you could only be what you were. So you try to  overcome. To recapture your beauty. Then you realize that you can't be the same. You will never be that again. You have changed. You have grown into something else. You are refining yourself. You are for a time, an unfinished color. You realize that the trials you face are the very thing that is giving color to your beauty. I see myself as this rose waiting to finish blossoming and becoming a vibrant color once more. Never to be what you were, but in the end a more beautiful version of yourself. Vibrant as ever. Never to be covered in tears again.
By Britney Tyger